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Never make it easy for someone to hurt you and walk away conscience free. Speak your peace and then let it go. Never let someone disrespect you and worst of all…think they can come back and do it again…
Tonight I’m going to dream about the split second where I was madly in love AND happy. You see even though he abused my love…there may always be a part of me dreaming of us making it….us getting past all the hurt and just getting back to happy. Tonight I shall dream of a supporting, unconditional, trusting, and everlasting love….the kind of love I never had.
The first year of the ex factor and I dating was so passionate. It was like I breathed him every second of the day. Let me be clear though, I fell in love with him way before we became intimate. I’ve never been able to fall in love after sex. He has to get me to love him before or I may never fall. Any time any place, we made love. That first year was explosive. Though in the end not even that type of passion could save us. Everything with the new boo is so different. I would say we are more practical. Passion is not what defines us. That had me thinking though…how do you know when you’ve met your husband? Then it dawned on me….he will know when he’s met me…
There was a time in my life I was settling. I started dating a guy I shouldn’t have. One day, before anything intimate happened between us, I felt his penis in my hands. It was very tiny (even when hard) and felt half circumcised and half not. I was settling so I felt if he was to be my husband one day I had to let him touch me. But I made myself a promise to never look down. That’s right I had sex with him and even showered with him yet never knew what his penis looked like. I did what I had to at the time. It’s called survival! lol. What I learned from that was to never date a guy when I’m heartbroken, never date a guy I’m not attracted to, and the next time the penis doesn’t feel right in my hand…never let it in my vagina. The lesson here is to never settle!
I don’t think it’s going to be this world wind romance but I do believe he will show up for me. And that’s huge. It’s a first….
