Kingston Expressions

Last night’s episode of Scandal was deep. So many things flooded my mind. One thing stood out: Mellie’s position. Let me start off by saying I’m Team Olivia AND Team Mellie. I never felt the need to choose. So much I love and hate about them both. However, last night I could identify with Mellie the most. There she was…this amazingly beautiful and complex woman…faced with some difficult choices. She stood by this man “come hell come high water” and she was now being put out to pasteur like yesterday’s used up cash cow. Leaving any home would be hard but leaving the White House must be particularly painful. I’ve faith she will be back as Madame President though! Now back to her position. I wish that someone would have told me what I’m about to tell you in my freshman year of college. Every woman, whether she be deemed weak or strong, will have moments in love where she feels she sold her soul to the devil. Even a strong woman will have days when she feels she sold her love cheaply. There Mellie was….hurt and abused yet filled with strength! I’ve been there recently. Cried almost once a week through the summer and praying that the Lord deliver me from this “situationship” I had put myself in. I felt disrespected and less than at times. It was like he was crushing my spirit. I’m not even sure if he was doing it purposely or if he had been so use to me giving all my love away so cheaply that I signed up to be forgotten and then treated like an after thought. I don’t think he ever really looked at me as he stepped over my body…metaphorically of course. In his only defense…I set the bar for what my love was worth. He was never in the position to set that price. Everything he took from me carelessly…I gave willingly and so did Mellie! So she is right…she deserves more! But not because of what she gave willingly…she deserves more because she is taking back her power over herself and setting the price for what she is now worth! My guess is she is….priceless! Strong women will have similar moments but we must always go back to the drawing board (or in a brand new relationship) and demand our worth! No one sets the price for what you are worth but YOU. And even in those moments of sadness…moments of second guessing yourself….allow yourself to be human and know that you are doing the best you can. Strength is not about avoiding hurt….strength is in picking up the pieces, rebuilding, and demanding your worth. So to the future Madame President and all the women in a similar position please sing: “You did not break me
I’m still fighting for peace

Well, I’ve got thick skin and an elastic heart,
But your blade – it might be too sharp
I’m like a rubber band until you pull too hard,
Yeah, I may snap and I move fast
But you won’t see me fall apart
‘Cause I’ve got an elastic heart

I’ve got an elastic heart
Yeah, I’ve got an elastic heart” ~SIA. Writer’s Note: In French, Madame refers to a married woman while Madam is the mistress of a household.

~KJM still high off of Scandal