Ugh…just when I thought Spring was officially here (it is almost May), my area got hit with more below freezing temps! This was after two days of being in the 80s!!! ? My poor body went into complete shock. One day summer and the very next…winter. Because of the long lasting cold spell…my winter blues have turned into spring blues. The extra sunlight helps but my needing gloves in the morning sends me into a sad mood. I have started to work out a bit on the very bad days. Sunday was one of them. Woke up feeling like I had not accomplished much in life and felt this overwhelming sadness hanging over me. Winter blues are hard to explain if you have never experienced them nor some form of situational depression. It is crippling. It is frustrating! And even when I do some of the things that typically brings me pure joy…I still feel anxious. I have been this way since October! ? This is how global warming can affect our lives from many different angles. I am in a never ending (at least it feels that way) winter. Are any of you that suffer from winter blues having similar experiences? Please let me know. Besides exercising and meditation, I keep reminding myself that everything will be okay. I have some heavy family stuff going on that feels like it’s been drowning me since January. Couple that with lots of misunderstandings and unspoken words with the Ex Factor and my need to find a new career…and…well…my cup is just pouring over. I am not checking in on folks as much as I usually do. I AM CHECKING IN ON MYSELF! ?? You cannot help anyone if all of your resources are depleted. Please remember that. You must be completely whole (mind, body, and spirit) before you can put that S back on your chest and try to save the world. ?? Where is Spring? She is my favorite season. A season of rebirth. A season of hope. Her delay is my delay. And so I push on. Longing for her warmth. Longing to be whole. ~KJM on Charm School Monday.
A little late on this one but sis you are not alone. Life can be overwhelming. And you come correct when you say “you cannot help anyone when your cup is empty.” It is easy for those who do not know your struggle to offer empry words of platitude. But strong woman to strong woman I say sometimes our strength comes from our pain. Sometimes we have to deep in our soul feel all the feelings (the good, the bad, the neurotic, the today he makes me crazy, the today I am going to punch someone in the face fantasy feelings)…because from all those feels we grow, we learn, we become better versions of ourselves. Some people think that strong women are not able to be vulnerable. That is their bad. Strong women are just better at hiding how vulnerable we are from the world. Keep speaking your truth. Keep having your feelings (just dont actually punch someone in the face .. unless you ready to catch that charge). And when you wake up in the morning and feel like you #basicbitch #canteven remember you are not basic. Remember you can survive.