Heart pounding. He stood before me. I could see something that I never witnessed in all the previous years. The only man I’m certain I have loved with all of me (The Ex Factor)…standing before me with his heart in his hands. I could see the look of frustration on his face as if he were saying…why have we been separated for the last 9 months?! I had no answer. The only thing I could think of is I needed to be loved in a certain way that…I wasn’t. To be a priority…to know that I was HIS ONE. Yes I needed that. And maybe he needed to know from me that I wouldn’t bail this time on him no matter how hard things got. Neither of us can make any promises. I’m a runner in every sense of the word. But there was never any love strong enough to find me each time…until now. No love that could be renewed as if there was a death and a rebirth all at the same time. No love that could stand before me and convince me to try 1000 times. No there was no love strong enough to survive world wars and still bring hope of a family…of children….until now. I still see my children in his eyes. The children only he could make me want. I could still our future! We can’t promise that we will make it but even with the 8 million mistakes we have made, WE ARE STILL WILLING TO TRY. I can’t believe I’m even saying that or that I’m even here…in this space with him. But there was the love of my life in front of me and I could no longer see our mistakes. I felt myself shivering only this time he did not hesitate to keep me warm. I didn’t even have to ask. He was there with me. I was there with him. And we aren’t giving up. Before this all happened, I spoke with Junior and Willow. I needed their support. They are my day to day as well as many of my other friends and family. But they have always had the ugly task of wiping all the tears so if they were on board…I could meet the Ex Factor half way. And so I did. If you are part of my support system, I want to say thank you. Here’s another chapter. Ready to take my hands? I don’t know how to leap but if you all are holding my hands and are willing to catch me…I think I can do it. Not every woman was born to LEAP…I sure wasn’t. And I’m terrified but knowing you are there is enough to push me into the unknown faithfully. 1st Corinthians 13 tells me that “LOVE ALWAYS PERSEVERES.” That is part of GOD’s promise to us. I don’t know why I thought HE had forgotten me…~KJM taking a leap of faith on Throwback Thursday. ??