I’m sorry it’s taken me so long to check in. This weekend I have lots of family commitments. No matter how hectic my life gets…I always try to stop and spend time with the people that matter the most to me. As always, I hope each of you are doing something special to honor yourselves…even if it’s just for fifteen minutes today. Before I let you go…I do have one truth to share. This week it occurred to me that even with all my accomplishments…I don’t feel accomplished. I’m not sure if it’s the Jamaican in me…where no job ever feels complete. There is a part of me that always feels like I could have done better in every aspect of my life. But then today, I got a chance to just sit still with my truth and realized I’m doing pretty damn well. The way I view myself has nothing to do with other people. It’s really measured by my level of independence. Right now there’s so much I cannot control in my life. I’m always moving, ending relationships, and turning the page. But that’s the essence of my being. Instability is my stability! After all, I am a Gemini! We need the world to constantly change. We need to feel alive in all we do. The Gemini must be actively present in all she does. Yes I look around and I wonder if there is anything or anyone that I can’t just walk away from…I do wonder about that. But what if that’s my strength?! To always adapt and evolve! If that’s the case then my level of independence will forever be changing. And I have to accept that. Accept who I am! So many of you have every day obstacles and wonder if you are doing your best. I’m here to tell you that as long as you are actively aiming to be a better person than you were yesterday….you are. I think the biggest thing I’ve lost sight of during those moments where I feel like my life could be more (especially career wise) is that GOD is in control! As I battle my storms, HE is using me as a vehicle. When it’s time for me to do more, HE will equip me with the skills to do so. So I patiently wait which is so hard to do. But while silently laying in my truth…I realized I am enough. ~KJM on Serenity Saturday saying won’t you please silently lay in your truth and give yourself a hug for how far you have come!??
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