In the blink of an eye my entire life changed last week. My heart is broken and I am in mourning. This has nothing to do with the Ex Factor nor Winter Blues. Those were the week before’s problems and I long for them for what a face now can swallow me up. It can destroy my faith and my hope in humanity. I don’t know why I thought yesterday’s problems were so deep. I long for them. I long for them. Tears come pouring out my eyes at a moment’s notice. And I feel lost. This is a different type of heartbreak. I feel confused and unsure of myself. And I feel blind sighted. The pain can only be compared to the time I lost my Grandmother, Gloria. I don’t think I have ever stopped mourning her. She’s been gone over 11 years now. That is how deep the hole is that is sucking me in. Part of me wants to give up and let it take me…but I can’t. I have to fight with all my being but oh my…I’m already exhausted. Yesterday’s problems had already worn me down when the news hit…and my life changed…in the blink of an eye. It just goes to show that whatever you are currently dealing with is not as big of a burden as you think it is. Tomorrow can always be worse. I am living out tomorrow’s worst now and it’s something you just cannot understand unless you have gone through it. Hug your loved ones and be grateful for yesterday’s problems because in the blink of an eye your life could change and you are left in the dark…fighting for your life. ~KJM on Temptation Tuesday. Please keep my family and I in your prayers. I yearn for answers. I yearn for guidance. I yearn for strength. The journey has only just begun… ??