I Tried (There’s No Such Thing As Perfection Edition)

I tried to be perfect for him even though he never attempted to be perfect for me! I tried never to complain. I tried to pretend I was always happy…that he made me happy. I tried and I tried…always coming up short. Always feeling less than. Always trying to not be tired…of trying! TIRED and TRIED are spelt with the same letters yet I always felt one letter off when I used the word TRIED instead of TIRED. There I was looking in at myself and…at him. Exhausted and disgusted! I’m exhausted from trying to be perfect all the time yet never meaning more to him. And I’m disgusted that I even tried to be perfect for him….when I always knew I was enough! Yet there I was…in the midst of a sad existence…smiling…as I perfectly disappeared… ~KJM on Charm School Monday