It’s Serenity Saturday and if there was ever a week that we need SERENITY….it’s this one! I have broken down in tears so many times. First for our nation after this terrible Election 2016 and then for myself and my continuous bruised heart! What a week! I feel like we are all battling for our souls and if we aren’t careful…the essence of who we are…may forever disappear. As I went through a wave of emotions….I could feel the sadness increase. Asking over and over….Lord have I forsaken you? What could I have done that is so bad that I must be dragged through a place of hopelessness and despair? I feel empty. I feel sad. I feel like I want to call on numbness again because feeling all of these emotions is just too much for me. But I’m pushing myself through it. Allowing myself to live out each rollercoaster of emotions. I’m not dodging it. Strength is in knowing that I will not break even when the pain feels too much to bare! Plus…as I’ve learned over the years….you cannot avoid pain and heartbreak. And if you try to…you may miss out on the opportunities to experience the positive emotions that taking those risks may lead to!???I’m still awaiting BOAZ, I’m still awaiting true love, and I’m still awaiting a moment where I can finally see why I had to take the hard road to success and happiness. I’m doing my best not to lose hope! And for every sad emotion I felt this week…I stopped, took a deep breath through the tears, regrouped, and decided to transfer my energy in a positive way….bringing some happiness to people I care about that are also riding out a storm. Now that’s SERENITY! The ability to step outside of ourselves and realize we cannot control the circumstances that break our hearts but we can spread love to others! I am choosing to take a long deep breath, wipe my tears, and move past it but not without spreading a tiny bit of happiness somewhere. That tiny bit of happiness would not exist if it were not for the pain, heartache, and confusion that I’ve experienced. That’s what I want you all to do! Take that pain and turn it into something great! Make a conscious choice to be present in your lives and others you care about! Even help out a stranger! Release the love you have to give that was once not appreciated. Someone will appreciate it! ?? I will not be swallowed up! I will not be forgotten! I will not stay broken! And I will find my SERENITY with steps of love? ~KJM saying riding out this wave with me on SERENITY Saturday ?
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