You will find me in pieces…broken pieces. So much has happened on the road to BOAZ. There were times I doubted your existence and started to doubt true love. In my wait for you, I made so many mistakes. It all began to take a toll on me. My heart felt like you had abandoned me even though I had never met you. What is keeping you? Is there something I said or did that made me deserve such a long wait? 20 years of dating! 20 years of heartbreak and disappointments! I almost gave up on you…then Ruth spoke to me! Everyday for a couple of weeks…I read the Book Of Ruth! I believe in some ways…her story began my preparation for you! How can I be more loyal? How can I be more faithful? How can I put my trust in God every step of the way? Ruth spoke to me again and that’s when I realized that you are closer than I think. Before bumping into Ruth, I carried this huge weight on my shoulders…believing I had forsakened God and that’s why He made me wait so long. There were times I felt unworthy…not loved…and not wanted. The days were filled with sadness while the nights were filled with loneliness. What had I done to deserve this? To be treated so harshly by so many? The tears would not stop flowing. As each tear fell, I began to lose my way. 20 years and you had not found me? No one warned me that it could be such a long wait, BOAZ! But the Book Of Ruth taught me how to yearn for you during my wait. I wonder what you look like? Are you kind? Are you patient? I’m so impatient that I’m praying you will forgive me right off the bat for being upset at your delayed arrival! I long to touch your face! I long to put my head on your shoulder and finally feel like I am at home. I long for you to vow to protect me and honor me for the rest of our lives! I long for it all. And on the eve of the beginning of a new year (2017), I want you to know that even with all the heartbreaks…I still believe in love… I still believe in you! And so I learn to patiently wait and to be loyal like Ruth…never taking for granted each day that God has given me to prepare for you. My prayer is that you are also preparing for me too! ?????? I await you and only you BOAZ! May our love be something worth waiting for! ~KJM on the very last Serenity Saturday of the year aka New Year’s Eve! Wishing all my readers and listeners a blessed, happy, successful, and loved filled 2017! ❤❤❤
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