I was too young to fully understand prayer. Still….every night I would put my tiny hands together and ask God for a baby brother. YOU WERE MY VERY FIRST PRAYER. And when you were born….you were perfect! You have always been more than I prayed for. Always know that. It wouldn’t be until you were about three years old that we would discover that you had Sickle Cell Anemia. We loved you even more after that terrible discovery. From that point on you would spend most of your childhood in the hospital. Holidays hooked up to machines. The Michaels family never left you. You and your perfectly beautiful dark chocolate skin and huge Afro brought nothing but joy to us. Still do. I use to love peeking into your crib. Always so quiet just laying there sucking your index finger. You hardly cried. I can’t remember standing over your crib and watching you cry. In 11 days you will be 30yrs old! That’s a huge milestone for you and our family as we have lost two uncles to this disease who never made it pass 30. As we approach your big day, I want you to know a couple of things. First, God has you in the palm of His hands. He gave you to us for a reason! Keep the faith no matter the obstacles that may come! Secondly, I want you to know that I’ve got you! I’m 34 years old, not married, and no kids. I’ve had many opportunities to live such a life and use to think…I’m just different. Not the domesticated type and just don’t have a biological clock. Then I realized that I’m grateful for the family I have. I don’t need kids that look like me. You and our sister, Brenda, look just like me! We’ve been through so much together. I’ve no desire for God to give me another family unless it’s really in His will. I’ve saved every kidney and organ in case YOU need it! Because for me there’s no point in venturing into marriage and motherhood if you are not there to cheer me on! Who needs a baby anyways? Lol. I will say it again…I got you! And Lastly, I want to let you know that YOU ARE LOVED in a way few people on this earth are loved. You are loved unconditionally, deeply, and literally with every organ in my body. Me, Brenda, and Mama and Poppa Michaels love you beyond measure! Count down to your big day! Love you Junior? May the blessings always be abundant! ~KJM crying and blogging on my 1.5hrs commute to work. Happy Hump Day! Tell someone you love them!