The Condition Of My Heart On Christmas

I want to start off by thanking God for the Michaels family. Without them, I am truly nothing.

Even with all the love and support I’ve around me, there is still a hole in my heart. Since our separation, Thanksgiving, his birthday (December 3), and Christmas are the only days I’ve truly missed the ex factor. I imagine that New Year’s Eve and New Years will be the hardest. Watching the seasons change and the holidays pass me by reminds me of what never was but could have been. They remind me of the love I once tried to fight for.

I want so much to be able to wish the man I’ve loved the most some Christmas cheer. It’s a terrible thing to not be able to reach out but there is so much pain there. I don’t know how I will ever get over the pain. Oh my aching heart. I miss the days I believed in him and us. I miss falling asleep with him and waking up to him. If there’s one thing my heart really wants to say to him it’s…I loved you, still love you, and probably to some extent there will always be a part of me that loves you. But due to the condition of my heart, I continue to move forward. I’m praying 2016 will be the year I will flourish without you. Wishing you nothing but the best. Wishing you find the life you gave up on us to live.

For anyone suffering from a broken heart this Christmas…KJM is right there with you. Let’s move forward together…one day at a time. May 2016 bring true love and prosperity! ~KJM on this Flashback Friday Christmas.