Staring At Him

I find myself staring not realizing what I’m doing….wondering if things would just be easier. It occurs to me that it’s a sign that I’m suppose to be somewhere else or with someone else. So I stare and I daydream. Life would just be easier I tell myself never realizing that no matter what door I choose there will always be work to do on myself and on my relationships. Anything worth having is never easy but when we are tempted we don’t realize that the temptation is a sign that we are afraid of doing the work, not ready to do the work, or just flat out worried that we will do all that work and fail! And I’m still staring but now listening to his voice. Intently. Not realizing that even if I walk through that door…his voice is going to want to command me to do some work. Work….ugh. That’s the thing once you give into temptation the fantasy can only last for but so long. And at some point if you don’t want to end up alone you must acknowledge there is work to do. In that moment I snapped out of my thoughts, stopped staring, and went back to focusing on work. True work…