Kingston Expressions

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A New Beginning (with Grace)

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A new beginning with grace is possible after major storms. Last night I was having a conversation with a close friend. As she dropped some wisdom on me…I realized I was meant to hear what she had to say. Almost nothing is accidental. God/the universe sends us messages in so many different ways. This amazingly beautiful woman had been through some life altering trials and tribulations yet managed to have a successful career and raise awesome children. If she wasn’t bitter about being mislead and deceived for decades….why was I so angry with my ex factor?! Forgiveness is a process and contrary to popular belief, it takes time for most of us to achieve. There’s been days I get so angry about wasted time, lies, and just the way I allowed myself to be treated. That’s right….I’m taking responsibility for my part! I’m no one’s victim. As I heard my friend’s voice speak of hope and happiness, I got disappointed in myself. The last couple years, as the ex factor was stepping all over my feelings, I’ve been walking around like a wounded puppy! It’s like I was forgetting my blessings. That God had rescued me and my life had continued with the possibility for new love. Why is it easier for most of us to carry around our baggage with fear and anger than wear them like a badge of honor…in a way that most war veterans do with their medals? I just want to unpack my suitcase and be happy! I want to be a beam of hope like my friend is for me. The amount of respect I have for her and others like her can never be expressed. Nothing has nor will hold her back. She wears her medals of honor proudly. Things that could have destroyed her….empowered her. I salute her! If any of you are like me and have been walking around broken, bruised, angry, and full of fear, let’s take today to start the process. Let’s take the first step into starting a new beginning with grace! Whether that means getting therapy, entering rehab, or simply just gracefully turning the page with a smile on our faces….let’s try! It’s all a process and together I think we can do it! Be blessed my friends. ~KJM on a fallback Monday but still pushing forward 🙂

A Quote About Joys And Sorrows (Not My Work)

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Deep….

Dive In (Give Trust)

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I’ve no choice but to dive in. To give him my all….all my trust. It’s never been done but the opposite of death is life. The opposite of broken is whole. I want to be whole again and I want to feel alive….so I’m jumping in.

KJM on this Halloween Saturday

Robbed: 5 years and 3 months

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Five years and three months of my life wasted. Now I know I had a part in it. There were so many men in my life that were more worthy of my love and time than you. But I stayed. Disrespect after disrespect, I let you abuse my body and soul as I stood still. It was like witnessing my own murder. There I stood….silent and in pain….begging God to deliver me out of this mess. And once He did, it never occurred to me the after effects of what you did to me. 5 years and 3 months of my birthing years. Every time I see someone announce their engagement and/or birth of a baby it reminds me of all you robbed me of…the things I let you take so easily. Now I’m sitting here on this train beautifully and intelligently (the things you could not take away from me) feeling unloved. I want to say that I wish you the best or even the worst for that matter. But I wish you nothing. The kind of nothing where your existence in my past, present, and future is gone. I wish you to take the pain and loneliness with you. I wish you nights of laying next to her feeling empty and unfilled. I wish you a sea of nothingness. Most of all, I wish you the kind of nothingness where 5 years and 3 months of your life has no meaning. May the nothingness eat at your soul so that you can never hurt anyone else. That is my wish for you. May you be robbed too…. ~KJM on Flashback Friday

Warning Signs

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We were 3 months into dating when I saw the first huge warning sign that he was not serious about a commitment. It was Labor Day weekend in 2010. I broke things off for a day and then decided I didn’t want to spend another day without him. I was already in love with him and I felt trapped. Even in my “happy” moments this feeling of being trapped never went away. As a matter of fact, it got deeper….so deep that in September 2015 it began eating at my soul. Every day during and after that Labor Day weekend I regret not standing up for myself and walking away….the amount of disrespect and emotional stress I endured for 5 years and 3 months was not worth a day of “happy” moments with him. I’m still fighting for my soul….and I never want to make that mistake again. It wasn’t that I didn’t know my worth…it was that I didn’t demand it!

KJM on Flashback Friday

A Meme About Dating In 2015 (Not My Work)

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~Unknown. I use to accept less but never again. Take that shit somewhere else…

5 Inappropriate Things that Bitch Siri Said to Me

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Update after update, Siri has sucked! But lately she’s been feeling herself. Here are 5 inappropriate things Siri has said to me that has made me want to slap the piss out of her and set my iPhone on fire:

5. One day a friend of mine asked me to check out the new Siri update. She told me to ask Siri any question. So I asked…“Siri, when will I find true love?” And the bitch’s response was “I don’t know Kingston. You keep looking for love in all the wrong places!” Bitch what?!

4. A few weekends ago my iPhone screen went black! I could hear people calling me but could not see a thing. So I tried to shut my phone off and when that didn’t work….I lost it and started cursing! To my surprise, Siri was on! For 45 minutes her and I ensued in a nasty argument. I called her everything but a child of God and one of her responses was “Your language is inappropriate and I don’t appreciate your tone!” Bitch what?! The freaky thing was she kept responding to my comments until I drove to the closest Apple Store! These are the things nightmares are made of!

3. I asked “Siri can you find the closest Walmart?” And she said yes but instead took me to someone’s home! Bitch where are we?! This ain’t no Walmart! Her voice got very stern as she told me that she would not respond to being called such names!

2. Please don’t call Siri a bitch too much. She appears to have the capability to ignore you for days if the verbal abuse is too much! I got this from one of my coworkers! This really happened to his sister. She cursed Siri out and Siri refuse to answer her for three days! Bitch what?!

And 1. This is the only warm moment I’ve ever had with her. When I was packing up and leaving the South for good, I got in my car and said “Siri, take me home!” And she replied…“Ok, Kingston. We are now headed to New Jersey!” I teared up. Are you suppose to have warm moments with your iPhone?! ~KJM on Throwback Thursday with that bitch named Siri close by….

A Quote About Dark Places (Not My Work)

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By Unknown

A Quote About Giving Too Much (Not My Work)

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I’ve nothing left to give you

Mary Jane’s Character to David on Tuesday Night’s episode of Being Mary Jane

I Forgot Your Fuck You

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I forgot your Fuck You! Looked for it so hard. It was buried under my I hate you’s. That’s where I keep it….in a tiny box that’s titled: I fucking loathe you. I will have to forgive eventually but not because you deserve it. Simply because the New Year is coming and I don’t want any part of you…not even your fuck you’s….

KJM reminiscing on Hump Day
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