Kingston Expressions

Writer, Editor, & Lifestyle Blogger: Sex, Lust, Love, Celibacy & More 🥰 A woman not afraid to walk in her truth....in style of course 👠 💄

The Hudson

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The most perfect NYC day 🙂

Hello (Not My Work)

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Hello from the other side
I must’ve called a thousand times
To tell you I’m sorry for everything that I’ve done
But when I call you never seem to be home

Hello from the outside
At least I can say that I’ve tried
To tell you I’m sorry for breaking your heart
But it don’t matter, it clearly doesn’t tear you apart
Anymore

Adele

Mom Greasing Her Legs (For My Future)

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I will grease my legs and work on 42nd street as a living prostitute to give you guys everything you want and need! I will not let you suffer in this country! I am your MOTHER!

Mama Michaels on Charm School Monday’s: My mother said this every time she paid our private school and/or college tuition (cash). This is immigrant life. She didn’t know how this country worked at first but she managed to give us the BEST education! Thank goodness it never came down to prostitution! JA 4 life!

A New Beginning (with Grace)

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A new beginning with grace is possible after major storms. Last night I was having a conversation with a close friend. As she dropped some wisdom on me…I realized I was meant to hear what she had to say. Almost nothing is accidental. God/the universe sends us messages in so many different ways. This amazingly beautiful woman had been through some life altering trials and tribulations yet managed to have a successful career and raise awesome children. If she wasn’t bitter about being mislead and deceived for decades….why was I so angry with my ex factor?! Forgiveness is a process and contrary to popular belief, it takes time for most of us to achieve. There’s been days I get so angry about wasted time, lies, and just the way I allowed myself to be treated. That’s right….I’m taking responsibility for my part! I’m no one’s victim. As I heard my friend’s voice speak of hope and happiness, I got disappointed in myself. The last couple years, as the ex factor was stepping all over my feelings, I’ve been walking around like a wounded puppy! It’s like I was forgetting my blessings. That God had rescued me and my life had continued with the possibility for new love. Why is it easier for most of us to carry around our baggage with fear and anger than wear them like a badge of honor…in a way that most war veterans do with their medals? I just want to unpack my suitcase and be happy! I want to be a beam of hope like my friend is for me. The amount of respect I have for her and others like her can never be expressed. Nothing has nor will hold her back. She wears her medals of honor proudly. Things that could have destroyed her….empowered her. I salute her! If any of you are like me and have been walking around broken, bruised, angry, and full of fear, let’s take today to start the process. Let’s take the first step into starting a new beginning with grace! Whether that means getting therapy, entering rehab, or simply just gracefully turning the page with a smile on our faces….let’s try! It’s all a process and together I think we can do it! Be blessed my friends. ~KJM on a fallback Monday but still pushing forward 🙂

Dive In (Give Trust)

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I’ve no choice but to dive in. To give him my all….all my trust. It’s never been done but the opposite of death is life. The opposite of broken is whole. I want to be whole again and I want to feel alive….so I’m jumping in.

KJM on this Halloween Saturday

A Quote About Comfort Zones (Not My Work)

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~Unknown. I want to grow so I’m making myself uncomfortable and taking risks!

Robbed: 5 years and 3 months

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Five years and three months of my life wasted. Now I know I had a part in it. There were so many men in my life that were more worthy of my love and time than you. But I stayed. Disrespect after disrespect, I let you abuse my body and soul as I stood still. It was like witnessing my own murder. There I stood….silent and in pain….begging God to deliver me out of this mess. And once He did, it never occurred to me the after effects of what you did to me. 5 years and 3 months of my birthing years. Every time I see someone announce their engagement and/or birth of a baby it reminds me of all you robbed me of…the things I let you take so easily. Now I’m sitting here on this train beautifully and intelligently (the things you could not take away from me) feeling unloved. I want to say that I wish you the best or even the worst for that matter. But I wish you nothing. The kind of nothing where your existence in my past, present, and future is gone. I wish you to take the pain and loneliness with you. I wish you nights of laying next to her feeling empty and unfilled. I wish you a sea of nothingness. Most of all, I wish you the kind of nothingness where 5 years and 3 months of your life has no meaning. May the nothingness eat at your soul so that you can never hurt anyone else. That is my wish for you. May you be robbed too…. ~KJM on Flashback Friday

Warning Signs

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We were 3 months into dating when I saw the first huge warning sign that he was not serious about a commitment. It was Labor Day weekend in 2010. I broke things off for a day and then decided I didn’t want to spend another day without him. I was already in love with him and I felt trapped. Even in my “happy” moments this feeling of being trapped never went away. As a matter of fact, it got deeper….so deep that in September 2015 it began eating at my soul. Every day during and after that Labor Day weekend I regret not standing up for myself and walking away….the amount of disrespect and emotional stress I endured for 5 years and 3 months was not worth a day of “happy” moments with him. I’m still fighting for my soul….and I never want to make that mistake again. It wasn’t that I didn’t know my worth…it was that I didn’t demand it!

KJM on Flashback Friday

A Meme About Dating In 2015 (Not My Work)

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~Unknown. I use to accept less but never again. Take that shit somewhere else…

Out Of The Woods (Not My Work)

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Looking at it now

It all seemed so simple

We were lying on your couch

I remember

You took a Polaroid of us

Then discovered (then discovered)

The rest of the world is black and white

But we were in screaming color

And I remember thinkin’

Are we out of the woods yet?

Are we out of the woods yet?

Are we out of the woods yet?

Are we out of the woods?

Are we in the clear yet?

Are we in the clear yet?

Are we in the clear yet?

In the clear yet? Good

Are we out of the woods yet?

Are we out of the woods yet?

Are we out of the woods yet?

Are we out of the woods?

Are we in the clear yet?

Are we in the clear yet?

Are we in the clear yet?

In the clear yet? Good

Looking at it now

Last December (last December)

We were built to fall apart

And fall back together (back together)

Ooh, your necklace hanging from my neck

On the night we couldn’t quite forget, when we decided

We decided to move the furniture so we could dance

Baby like we stood a chance

Two paper airplanes flying, flying, flying

And I remember thinkin’

Are we out of the woods yet?

Are we out of the woods yet?

Are we out of the woods yet?

Are we out of the woods?

Are we in the clear yet?

Are we in the clear yet?

Are we in the clear yet?

In the clear yet? Good

Are we out of the woods yet?

Are we out of the woods yet?

Are we out of the woods yet?

Are we out of the woods?

Are we in the clear yet?

Are we in the clear yet?

Are we in the clear yet?

In the clear yet? Good

Remember when you hit the brakes too soon?

Twenty stitches in the hospital room

And you started crying, baby I did too

But when the sun came up, I was looking at you

Remember when we couldn’t take the heat

I walked out and said I’m setting you free

But the monsters turned out to be just trees

But when the sun came up, you were looking at me

You were looking at me, oh

You were looking at me

I remember

Oh I remember

Are we out of the woods yet?

Are we out of the woods yet?

Are we out of the woods yet?

Are we out of the woods?

Are we in the clear yet?

Are we in the clear yet?

Are we in the clear yet?

In the clear yet? Good

Are we out of the woods yet?

Are we out of the woods yet?

Are we out of the woods yet?

Are we out of the woods?

Are we in the clear yet?

Are we in the clear yet?

Are we in the clear yet?

In the clear yet? Good

Are we out of the woods yet?

Are we out of the woods yet?

Are we out of the woods yet?

Are we out of the woods?

Are we in the clear yet?

Are we in the clear yet?

Are we in the clear yet?

In the clear yet? Good

Are we out of the woods yet?

Are we out of the woods yet?

Are we out of the woods yet?

Are we out of the woods?

Are we in the clear yet?

Are we in the clear yet?

Are we in the clear yet?

In the clear yet? Good

“Out of the Woods” by Taylor Swift
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