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In the middle of the night, I awoke from a bad dream. This would normally be the time that I would text you and you would say something sweet to help me get back to sleep. Not every moment with you was torture. There were some wonderful ones. For those moments, I will always be grateful. I’m careful, however, to not look at things how they never were. There was always more pain than pleasure….more tears than happiness…
I’ve no clue what makes a man love a woman. Like truly deeply love her. I’ve a feeling it has nothing to do with her body, her looks, her money, or even her ability to have children. If most men knew the moment they were going to fall I’ve a feeling they would choose not to. I truly believe the woman that has a man’s heart is divinely picked. God, Himself, decides that this man and this woman will love. He also decides forever love. I have to think that it’s God’s work. Trying to understand man’s work is too exhausting. No matter the size of your waist, butt, and breasts, if a man is meant to love you…he will. And like the song says “I can’t make you love me if you don’t.” If I had tapped into this thought process of divine love, I could have saved myself 5 years and 3 months of heartache. It was not meant for the ex factor to love me…it was never part of God’s divine plan. Free will can be a blessing and a curse. I chose for years to love he who was not choosing me…divinely. But I was afraid to let go because there was a part of me that felt like I will never love again. I’ve even said this to Willow, who loves to fall in love, many times. Each time she would say to not speak it into existence. True love will find me. God bless that Willow! She won’t allow anyone to give up on love on her watch! I don’t want to give up. I’m just too exhausted to wait on this divine love. There’s a part of me that wants to keep choosing he who is not divinely choosing me. Why would anyone do this to themselves? Why would I want to continue to break my own heart over and over again? If there’s one thing I could say to my younger self…I’d say that the divine love that God chooses for you is worth the wait! No prior broken hearts can stop a love so great. There will be bumps in the road but when God chooses for us we are fulfilled in a way we never thought we could. HIS vision is that large and that great. So to all my readers who chose for themselves and/or are still waiting on their divine love I say….choose he who is choosing you…divinely. I think I’m close and to remind myself of how we got here I will say: Jesus, commitment, and pork. Lol ~KJM trying to figure out when and how a man loves a woman on Hump Day. Be blessed!
I love a lot of pillows on the bed and he doesn’t. However, every now and then he finds comfort being buried in my pillows and I find comfort laying flat and watching him amongst my pillows….
He’s really like no one I’ve met before. I’m not smitten at all. But he provides me with something I’ve never had. I don’t want to say what that is just yet because I want to be sure. He holds my hands every where we go. And when we fall asleep he needs to feel I’m near. He naturally sleeps cuddled up with me. I’ve no clue what a lifelong partner looks like. I believe in love at first sight and this is definitely not that. I’ve no clue what’s next. He’s just so different. And I’m different when I’m with him. Polar opposites we are! For now I’m just happy he shows up when I need him and I never have to tell him to hold my hands or pull me close.
Happy Thanksgiving to all my readers and followers! Wishing you peace, love, and blessings!
